Today was a good day at therapy. I talked about not trusting anyone but now I believe that I can’t trust others because I don’t completely trust myself. I don’t trust my own decisions in my life. I have to be comfortable with myself in order to be comfortable around others. Its work that I still have to do in therapy. Its figuring out why I do what I do. Some people don’t care about the whys in life but needing to know why is the way my mind works. Its a process that has taken a long time to get this far. Having a trauma history affects every aspect of your life if you let it. I want change. I want to have a better quality of life. Therefore I need to do this work. I work hard in therapy. I always have.