I have therapy tomorrow. We are going to work on the memory that is the worst thing that ever happened to me. Thus far I have been able to handle bad memories but this one is going to be an emotional challenge for me. Thankfully, the kind of therapy that I am doing, (EMDR) helps to take the charge off the memory so that it is not as traumatic to talk about. I felt great when my therapist said that she thought I was brave to do this. She said it takes great courage to relive horrific things. But its the going back and processing that will help me to move forward. Sometimes it requires taking some steps backwards to move forward again. However long it takes, I am going to get through all of this. I want a better life. I want to know for once in my life what it is like to actually live….really live!
I will try and post tomorrow about the appointment.