I have been messing around with the look of my blog. It might change a few more times before I get it just right. I did not get much done today. I have had no energy or motivation to do anything. I am so frustrated with a lot of things in my life right now. I guess its just one of those times when nothing seems to go right. I will look at today as just blip in my efforts whatever they are. I will continue. Just because I am frustrated right now that will not stop me from trying. I know when I am down that there is only one direction from there, up.
I have been on the verge of tears many times this weekend. Perhaps I wont cry all at once. Maybe it will seep out little by little. Besides it makes sense that you can not grieve a lifetime of pain, loss, and great sorrow in an hour.. It may take me longer than I wanted but I am willing to respect the process for how ever long it takes.