My husband comes home from work and walks around me without saying anything. I assume he thinks that I am still angry at him for yesterday. The truth is that I am not angry with him. But I didn’t tell him that. He looked a long time at me and asked, “are you having one of your bad days?” Really “one of my bad days?” That’s just as bad as “did you take your meds today”. No, I told him no. I said to him, “don’t I have the right to be sad about this for awhile”? After all you did say that I could have a puppy and then took it back. I think I’m being really nice by saying that I am just sad. I really am very sad and I definitely wanted him to know that. I guess I am being like a spoiled little kid but I really wanted my golden retriever puppy. If I get one it’s not going to be until next year. I wondered did he change his mind when he said that I could get one or was he lying to me all along. No, my husband is not a liar. I believe that he thought he would be able to get me one right after vacation but we spent way too much money on vacation. He just couldn’t see 2,000 for a puppy in the budget for awhile.
I am trying so hard to understand and be a grown-up about this but I don’t want to. I just want to be sad. I am not treating him badly. I am just not that conversational right now and I don’t think he likes it very much. I think he feels a little guilty for making a promise that he could not keep.
I have got to say though, he worries about me. I should just be grateful that I am so loved. I am very grateful but I still want to stay sad for a while.
Ok I will stop winning now.